I am so bored now.. time pass so fast... hehe it's so weird ppl just complain on whatever things they could.. wow it's amazing u know.. when it's exam period i complained about stress and now that exam is over i am complaining about being bored.. i never get satisfied with what i am having, dont ya think so? but that's me~!!! hehehehe.... : ) hey i am planning to work in airport coffee bean for this holiday.... i wonder if i could get in..i am kinda excited about working there cos i like the atmosphere there, it's like working in ang mo country cafe... should be fun since there would be so many ang mo around kekekekeke and that's of cos my main purpose hahahaha just kidding lah.. however, that's one thing about there that scare me away... guess what ? it's the coldness... i mean real cold... when i went there to study during my study week i got cold and flu becos of the full blast air con... it's like free ya know.....grhh..... anyway i am talking nonsense now..kekeke
Anyway, well about me and my guy... oh yeah today, after school even though i was very glad that exam is over, i find it weird that i was feeling depressed... perhaps maybe it's becos yesterday time was quite hard to pass.. my emotion was kinda mixed up, it's like happy outside and sad inside.. kinda not right.. Well, anyway after that killer exam, my friends asked me to join them for lunch and so i agreed.. but in the bus, my guy was not sitting with me and i was sitting alone, and i felt rather isolated from our friends as they were chatting happily and i am like rotting in one corner... very pathetic indeed... saddest case... so since i suddenly have the urge to go the Esplande(new architectural building near Suntec), u know the place where there is merlion ? so i left the group telling them that i dun feel like eating but i didnt tell him that i will be leaving so i just walked faster towards the MRT station and then i guess my friend told him that i didnt wan to eat and will be leaving them. Actually, i believed that i acted abit attitude problem which is of cos not intentionally cos i desperately needed time alone as i was not feeing too good and i was thinking that the view there could cheer me up a little. I told him to go ahead with them but in the end he followed me.. and i felt quite bad that i didnt even say bye to them when i evacuated hehehehe :P... anyway, i proceeded to do what i had in my mind and he followed me until i reached the so-called sadness relieving place (at least for me it works) .. and as wat i thought, i felt very much better..i wanted to cry out loud ( for no reason i mean it's just sad feeling with no reason i guess or maybe for some reasons that i didnt realise) but remain calm...i think i looked really sad cos he was panicking... I told him what i actually felt about how he didnt show his care and love for me and he also explained some stuff back... well.... and hey he said that i always jump into conclusion very fast... well i admitted i really did sometimes and felt really guilty about it so anyway i will try to improve on that bad point of being judgemental... :) that's basically wat happened today.. things got back to normal now.. but i hope it will be better instead of more sadness for me.... it's late now i going to rest liao... I luv u all.... thanks for being the listening ear or eye kekek :) keep me update with ur life too...